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Actually im really bored. i at my college now posting this blog.. i came early today to college and i cant study. im going to monteng this evening class and go out with bf. main bowling, pool, movies. ahh the joy of KL. u have everything and sumthing to do.

I have to remind myself to clean up my messy room.im a lady and the room is lke ayun;s room (hah! not that bad la, i meant my room)

I find it very hard to study when it comes to reading subject. My paper II for CAT involves with alot of reading and memorizing. I just hope i pass it thou. Oh talking boout that, i felt like im fake. know why? cuz everytime agama class i will wear tudung and after class i'll take off my tudung. Wth. I kept remebeting the words of this particular song. "pakai tudung, masuk tanda buang tudung" or sumthing like that. the malay song that kutuk malays.

ok the point of me writing this today is.. im clueless. i havent done anything for my assigment and studies. BAD BAD Aisyah.

I have to go for interview today after 5 or 6 pm. An office in Shah Alam. Its far i know but if i got the job, then it'll be very good for me as i'll be working in a Charted Accountant office. Althought i think my job buat kopi, tolong photostat and stuff. see how it goes yeah?

Yesterday had dinner with Kak Jackie and Abg John in Subang Parade. We ate Kenny Rogers but i really3 feel like eating nandos. i love the sauce. *ehem* Semangat portugis ni!!! Kak mel is going to Batu Pahat. She got the KPLI or the perguruan thing. See, thing is, she's going to take the gen2. and mum told me that abg rahim is going to take the gen2. im sad. cuz i cant get the car. I know wth my records, i shouldnt be having a car. But its kinda unfair cuz when Kak Mel was in uitm doing her diploma and degree (when we were still back in Terengganu) She had the car. All for herself, I know shes a great driver and all. And yes i would be happy and galivant around if i have the car. But im not asking it for myself also. Im asking for mum;s behalf. Cuz if mum wants to go around, and if papa is not around, then i think its my job to send her. I know its a lame idea and alasan but.. i do care bout mum. and i dun think i wanna send her to ktm and she naik train etc. ANd i know abg Im needs the car to go to work. But he's staying in subang and the work is at taipan. why cant he go to work like before he met kak mel? why kak mel kena manjakan die sangat?

I dont understand. am i that bad? I do compare myselfwith other teenagers around and im proud to say im not like that. But im not like my sisters too. with them i feel like im a trash. Im like the black sheep or whateva u call it. But i dont do stuff as bad as other teenagers. And i do compare myself with good teenagers too. haih.....

Im 20 and i'm still confuse. COnfuse with who i am, confuse with what i am. With where i wanna be in the next 5 or 10 years. Seriously, i really dont know.Im twisted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so the moral of the story is

can sumone give me teh recipe for famous amos and belanja me nando's?
hehe

Mcpa gig?

Today i wanted to go to MCPA today for the gig but suddenly i had no mood. EVen Yun wasnt feel much to go to gig.plus the line was fucking long and im sure its going to be too crowded in there. so i decided to lepak.Then we wanted to see movie but same thing also. Nak maik pool also same thing. so we dicided to run up and down mcm kambing la jugak go here and there until back and leg hurts. last2 skali we lepak at borders and i read sum manga then dinner and i went back. I bought this bag that was selling on the bridge at timesquare, not the monorail one's but the bridge towards bb/sgwang. they have cuteeee bags!!!


and im still devasted by one of my circle of friends. he's not replying to my msg. Ayun and i and sum of his friends are going to do a surprise party for a particular girl-friend (that we met from this guy) and i invited him but no news. sedih. i really dont know whats up with him until he;s changed.
well. not my life to mess around with huh? But this surprise party is special cuz she's going to fly oversea. so im just paying my last respect to her.. who knows. anything can happen kan? 7 years i long and if she comes back also to malaysia every year, well im looking forward to see her but i know she;ll be very busy. like my sis ,came back to malaysia but rarely have time to visit friends. cuz kena buat passport la, renew visa and do on.

i wish he can come. i wish he still the old him, this friend of mine. i miss hanging out with him. NOT because he have a car. Its because i like being friends with him

Advice

Bf give me sum advice yesterday and i was suppose to write it in the blog. ok. i try to shorten it as much as i can

1. Dun be Bossy and hard headed
2. Compromise
3. Im a tipical Malaysian too
4. Be friendly with his side of the family too

ok.thats all i can remeber from the babling. h uhu. yun..u have anything to add? -_-;;;