fucked up again

i went to laundry yesterday for the gig but i kinda like had a fite with bf.
so pretty much no mood and urgh i had enuf actually..fighting with bf..
and i bought my lil sis along and its like..maybe slalu sgt fighting with her in the middle.

but seriously..maybe i think me and yun need sum space or sumthing. and i though by smsing my friend whould make me feel better but even he ..umm..sulk. im sorry!!! (if u read this, im really sorry)

so yeah i think im a trouble maker.sheesh.

about my college.. i havent study yet for paper I and II (CAT) and supposely i study today tp look here i am in front of the computer. bout my friend, guy A. we kinda left him out and another girl-classmate said im too harsh on him.seriously, shes not in my position, she doesnt know, and im not in her position, i dont know la kan whats her problem. everytime when he's (guy A ) around i feel annoyed but when he's not around, i feel kinda im tooo harsh (which i am) on him. ntah la.. i dont know what to do. too much problems here in my head.

And i kinda miss one of my particular friend. he's not really my friend, i met him from my bf. so die kawan bf. lol. neway i miss hanging out with him ( i really do ) but yelah he have his own problems. but i dont know..wahts up with him. i feel sad everytime i think bout him. maybe he doenst think yun and me his friends, i dunno. he's a nice guy and i hope.. in the future, we can hangout again..

i think i fucked up things pretty bad
and it involve with a lot of guys
and the only thing i know what to do is WHINE.
dont you think so?

urghhhhhhhh

i had sum huge arguments with my bf since last week and when it cool down pastu jadi bende lain pulak problem nyer. i feel so friggin stress this week cuz of my own problems plus other people's prob too. i yelled at my mum and i know its my fault. i already said sorry,im sooooo impatient this week. anout guy A.. i really dont know what to say. i already said to him that whateva it is, we settle tomorrow (MONDAY) but he's like dont understand. i feel like yelling at him. im being too harsh on him.he knows tp entah la.. i dunno what to say. i felt like smaking him. he kept asking too much question and even tho i give the same answer he kept asking me until i CAPS LOCK the words then he understood what i was trying to say. he even wanted to come down to kajang and see me today but i said i wanna stay at home.i know im being tooo harsh on him. but the reason why he wanted to see me cuz he wanted to talk bout this thing which i said SETTLE IT ON MONDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. AND its like so obvious that he likes our friend, and also my friend in KPTM. its like.. really obviouslah..

well today i went to kuchai road and umm look at a car which my dad's friend want to get rid of it. its an old saga car, prolly like 10 years old and its for cheap. and my sis ingat nak mark-up abit and sell it to the enegineers or rent it to the engineers and at the same time let me use it. well, at least i have a ride,if kak mel give a green light. the final decision is on tuesday.lol. but its and old carrrrrrrrrrrrrr. kan rosak tgh jalan mampus aku hoho. >P

the gig

today, actually there is 2 gig. 1 is at taman shamelin (dekat ajew dgn kptm) and the other one is at mcpa and so i decided to go to skizo,taman shamelin with my kptm friend, Adi from sabah and my bf. so actaully i wanted to see oh chentaku perform la kan. there's sum pics.sikit ajew tp still got sum pics.



there was not many people showed up for the gig. and the air conditioner was broken so its like a hell's party. i wanted to stay for y2k but the gig habis kul 9 like that and i was tired already so i left at 7. anyway..oh chentaku was perfoming acustic style. but they rock the house. when oh chentaku perform,somehow, the room is crowded with people. sorry for the other bands cuz they did not have that mch fans. ok idk what to say anymore.



so here are the pics




before the gig starts.lepak at mamak makan with my bf


this is my friend, Adi from Sabah. =)


oh chentaku jamm


oh chentaku perfoming acustic. they perform 2 venue in 1 day. in skizo n mcpa


jump-jump


lepak jap


tgh layan laaa


mosh-mosh


picture time with oh chentaku =DD [thats me.lol.haha]


my bf and adi kodak moment with oh chentaku.


support local music yaw.

complicated

i thought when i enter kptm, things will be fine and not like uitm.seriously,maybe i should think twice.my head is heavy now. tired and dizzy thinking about other people's problem. how did i got into this mess anyway? we just started to know for 2 weeks and this problem is like we've known for like 2 months least! this problem is too complicated until i myself dunno where to begin. i try to short it out as short as i can (i kan suke bercerita.haha)



ok. This particular guy (A) friend of mine whom we met since day1 is having sum kinda of misunderstanding from guy (B) guy (C) dan guy (D). This Three guys B,C,D is staying togerher in hostel thus they are bond easily. So they share their secret together and they made it clear not to tell anyone. So guy A felt left out, because he told his story and he wants to know the secret of guy C by poking guy B. understand x?imsuck at telling stories. huhu anyway.. guy A kept asking guy B to tell and guy B had enuf of guy A. so is guy C and D. so this where the problem starts! haha. so guy B is told guy A he is 2-sided-face (talam-2-muka) and he ask him to buzz off. guy B msg me that and i forward to guy A since guy B ask me to do it. after that i think he settle by his own.



anyway..Guy A took it the harrrrrrrrddddddd way.he kept poking me to ask why guy B said that and i dont even fucking know. maybe its my fault cuz i making things difficult. maybe i told vuy B about guy A and he misundersttod me? not so sure. but we are going to have a BIG TALK on monday and clear everything out. urghhh.... pening kepalaku. sakit.mcm migrain pun ade la jugak.



Actually Guy A is a bit annoying cuz he ask too much question and sumtimes x kena masa. espesially when he sms. its like a never ending story sms-ing with him. he got to ask every single thing. which IS annoying. and i know how guy B C D felt. thing is, guy A's parents died long time ago.so i kinda much pitty him. I already talk to guy B and umm..i guess he kinda didnt like guy A.



abother thing is, guy A msg me that (just before this problem start to get serious) he didnt have much friends and the friend that he felt "close" to is with guy B.



so.its a complicated story.im posting a new blog about m gig.haha

2nd post

hello. actually. i dont know what to say. i keep it short la ok

i already finished my orentation on thursday and it was ok la cuz rapat dgn faci.hehe
well anyway, on friday we had to go to college and submit our mara loan stuff.then later we hang out at jusco maluri.hehe...
today(sat) i just sit at home.then at 4 i went and wash my hair at saloon cuz my cousin is having her wedding at the hotel. Patricia is my cousin name. Patricia De Costa. his dad is my dad;s older bro. my dad is 69 and his bro is 71. figure it out la. neway they had it in PJ hilton and ku pening because music too loud and i didnt have the mood and all. urgh im thinking bout financial.well anyway the food was super duper awesome!!neway, bout financial... I cant alwyas depend on mum. you see, im going back and forth from college to m y home in kajang so yeah i do need money to travel by train. (have to travel by 2 train) if my father send me then FOC la.haha. well anyway.. i confused. should i work ovet the weekend to support myself? cuz actually, i want to go to gigs more often. and then buy more cool shirts and not to mention,belajar main drum (bass lah) and..... a camera.
huh.

yeah im babling to much.pffth

my 1st post

Actually, to tell you the truth, i started this blog like last year.or its already been 2 years?haha. well, its actually suppose to be my secret blog.. and i didnt know that i can hide that blog.silly huh? so i have 5 secret post.ala nothing much la. xde ape2 pown. membebel aje manjang.. =) so. i will try my very best to update this blog everyday and to include picture's. =DDD

Well anyway. now i'm studying at KPTM (Kolej Poly-Tech MARA) at Taman Shamelin, Cheras. And i choose to travel back and forth everyday from Semenyih/Kajang (where i stay)

anyway, i love to crap alot.so sorry yeah -_-;;

enjoy your day.

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I LOVE YOU AYUN!!!

muuuaxxxxx